Clickless Class Reunion

Well the 25th Class of 88 Reunion was Saturday night and it was so much fun.  I got to see all my friends from high school and I even talked to a bunch of people I hadn't even talked to K-12 just because I never had classes with them or we were just in different clicks.

One thing I've noticed this past weekend is that 25 must be the magic year.  Most people had forgotten about any high school grudges, conflicts and any fights over old boyfriends or girlfriends.  I think we are all at the age that things like that just don't seem to matter anymore. It was all about catching up, seeing pictures of kids, reliving old memories and thinking about those that could not make it.

I have a crowd anxiety issue.  I developed it in the past couple of years.  I didn't have any of those issues this past weekend but I'm sure it's because I knew everyone in the place.  One really neat thing that happened is that I learned some people from back home are reading this blog and commented to me about issues some relatives have had with depression, anxiety amd ADHD .  It really does help to know that you aren't the only person having these issues.  It brings comfort being able to talk to someone openly who understands what they are going through.  It made me realize that I need to keep up on this blog a little better.

With every high school reunion there will always be that one person that you can't bring yourself to talk to because of what ever issues you had with them in high school. In my case there was someone I couldn't talk to because of issues that arose from a past reunion.  Reunions right after high school are the worst because people haven't forgotten past hurts and it's easy to still hold a grudge.  This particular person said something to me that is still hard to over come but I'm working on it.

My bully didn't show up this year and I guess that's ok.  While I would have been cordial and polite there are still parts of me that want to tell this person how much the bullying really screwed me up.  I guess since I'm older and have gotten help for all those years of bullying, there is really no point in drudging up past transgressions.  Most people change.  Some don't.  I can only hope this person has changed.

If you are the type of person who revels in catching up with old friends than I suggest going to your class reunions.  If you're the type that would like to see old freinds but still hold alot of grudges than I suggest going but just keeping you thoughts to yourself.  People are there to have a good time and catch up.  Like I said to someone who wasn't going because of something that someone said to them in the fall of 1986, "Well I'm 42.  I'm going to go and have fun.  I'll catch up with you later."

Reunited cuz if feels so good...

This weekend is my 25th High School Class Reunion.  It's so hard to believe I'm 42. Remember when you were 16 and you thought 30 was so, so old?  I thought 40 must be ancient.  

I grew up with young parents.  My mom and dad were in their 30's when I was in high school. I guess that's why 30 seemed to sold to me.  After all, aren't all our parents old and grumpy when we're 16?

I've heard alot of people dread their class reunions.  I've also heard that by the time you get here to 25 years, everyone seems to have grown out of their "clicks" and have stopped trying to impress each other.  Well, not me.  I mean I like to stay in shape an all but I have to say I worked out extra hard in the last few weeks.  I was still recovering from neck surgery and I was in that stinking gym.  

I also worked out hard because I found out something about myself.  I need a target.  I need a target day or week or year to strive for or else I won't do it.  If I know I have some place to be, or something to do for acting or going on vacation, I will hit the gym and hit it hard!

42 really snuck up on me.  I think it's because I don't feel 42.  I feel more like 32.  Hell, even 22 but then that's probably because I really just a big kid.  I have dogs because I probably couldn't take care of a kid.  If you forget to feed the dog, you can just feed him later.  I hear kids like to eat.  And more than once a day.  

I'm sure this reunion will be a blast.  I'm looking forward to seeing tons of people I haven't seen in a very long time.  I think I'm going to have to break my bed time of 11:00.  God I'm getting old.